So, I sit in front of my computer again, pondering on how to put thoughts//feelings//concepts//lessons learned all into a 'blog'. I have not updated in quite awhile, and honestly, there has been much that's changed in my life since the last time.
Late July of this past summer I dislocated my kneecap playing basketball with friends. I was rushed to the ER and given an immobilizing brace & crutches, and didn't pretty much left to recover. After: 1) having my knee drained out twice (because of the effusion), 2) going to about three different orthopedic doctors, 3) attempting the 'recovery process' too soon, 4) struggling with sleeping & simply walking around like a normal person, and 5) finally beginning physical therapy after all kinds of insurance issues since turning 22, I have learned a lot.
Humility is a precious and important thing...which was very difficult for me to attain in such circumstances; I like to do things on my own. I already knew this about myself before this injury occurred but man, I can be stubborn.
*Humans need assistance* The Lord is perfect at giving them what they need; it may be through other humans, the abundance of blessings He puts in their lives, or trials and tribulation. In my case, it's been all. I struggled so long to let God open my eyes to the necessity of allowing my friends to do things for me.
In a previous blog, I already wrote about the humility of Jesus... I can't even accurately describe Him because His meekness is unfathomable in my imperfect sinful mind! And now here I am attempting to be like Him, in His perfect character, and fail countless times. Praise God for Jesus' blood and sanctification.
As I am still healing four months after the injury, patience has become so much more than an important virtue in my life. [Kinda funny because I don't remember specifically asking the Lord to give me patience before I hurt my knee...but goodness did He hear lots of requests for it since then!] Things started to frustrate me so quickly and I tried to depend on myself many times, but that's when it got to be more frustrating. Needless to say, I was desperate for the Lord's grace in my impatience and selfishness. Praise God for Jesus' blood and sanctification.
"The Lord is gracious and merciful; slow to anger and great in lovingkindness. The lord is good to all, and His mercies are over all His works. All Your works shall give thanks to You, O Lord, and Your godly ones shall bless You." Psalm 145:8-10
After humorous memories with the roommates and friends, random things said from Lortab, difficulty walking up and down stairs or down a hallway, I have come to appreciate my knee going out of place.
---Job 5:18---
-->Neat fact: "humus" means the organic component of soil/decomposed organic matter/ basically EARTH.<-- Humility comes from Humus. My knee was broken. God brought me down to the earth. :)
Praise the glorious name of Jesus Christ.